I think I've found the answer to the thought that had been lingering on my mind recently.
Why did I cry that day?
There's nothing wrong, nothing that is supposed to hurt me.
Even though he said sorry, but he had said it before ( and I don't even know if he meant it)
At that time, I don't even know what to forgive. I want to forgive him, but for what?
And then, after that I cried silently on the car, as if it was appropriate for him to say sorry at the first place.
As if there was something with what he said that hurt me.
I didn't even know why I was crying at that time.
Something felt wrong with my body and it wants to cry.
So I did.
However, now, I think I know why.
It was because of a "Gue merasa bersalah, back then"
Words that implied that no matter how much this whole thing means to me
It no longer means a thing to him
And tragically, that how it's always supposed to be.
